Day 1 complete - almost

Countdown commencing, day one almost put to bed. Did I do well? Um, not sure. I did a bunch of really healthy stuff and then ate some unhealthy stuff and then saw a photo of myself on Facebook that made me want to cry. So just a normal day, really. One thing I have noticed about life in general is how much bloody STUFF is running around in my head at any given moment. I really have taken on too much - too much work, too much extra stuff (i.e., the dreaded Masters), too much food... too much. Without realising it, I joined a carousel and I don't even know why. I just recognise that there is a part of me that wants to keep moving and busy and that feels things are under control that way. Interesting. Well tomorrow is Day 2, and I am off to the beach which will be great for thinking about all kinds of stuff. And maybe figuring out how to put indentations and paragraphs into these posts. No, you know what, actually Day one kicked ass. And I am deleting that photo from my feed, because I don't need to be discouraged like that. And I finished clearing out a cupboard! night night world xo

Whyfore is this blog?

This blog is really just for me to keep track of how I am doing health-wise, weight-wise, lifestyle-wise. It will not be of a huge amount of interest to anyone other than me, but if you ARE reading it feel free to comment. I'd like to ask you to keep it encouraging and positive focused. I am not setting myself up as any kind of inspirational guru or expert in the making, nor am I am aiming to be funny or entertaining or even smart in this blog.

But I do need encouragement in order to keep things moving along, and it seemed to me this morning that this was an ideal compromise. This way, I can do my ranting and venting and over-sharing, and it is not in everyone's face, and I don't have to deal with feeling guilty about cluttering people's feeds with my physical minutiae.

I am attempting to focus on a short term, 90 day goal for eating healthily and exercising more. Part vanity (yes, ten years of being a fat woman has utterly sucked, and despite my belief in my worth as a person, I am not really happy with the way I look), and part health (in the past 12 months I have had some serious health problems occur which are all improved by losing weight). So, I really, really need to stick to it. It will be hard because obesity is a pretty complex disorder - I have metabolic issues, I have physical issues, and I have a lot of pretty deep-set emotional issues. These all combine to create a near perfect storm of opposition to rational behaviour when it comes to food.

My thinking right now, is that while I realise consistency and moderation is key with exercise and food - it is also true with thinking. So my aim in the blog is to keep my mind focused on what is really important. I am starting by setting some fairly specific goals for the 90 days. I say fairly specific because they may change, as in they may become clearer to me as I get better at reflecting. Here goes for now:

1: I will get the balance of my work and home lives better, so my 90 goal is to not do any school paperwork on the weekends, and to finish all school paperwork by 6pm on weekdays, and spend time with my son no matter how behind I am with anything. (I will need to attend some weekend rehearsals for plays)

2: I will lose a minimum of 10kg in 90 days, so my goal is to eat plenty of lean meat and protein, lots of vegetables and fruit, and the healthiest carbs/ grains I can. I also need to avoid alcohol and fatty foods because of my liver problem.

3: I will consistently do 300 minutes of exercise per week over the 90 days, I will need to do a majority of this first thing when I wake up in order to fit it in. 4: I will write in this blog every night before bedtime.

This is a pretty personal journal, I have no problem with people reading it and helping me to stay focused but please don't be disappointed if it is a bit dull. Especially at first!